Hey hey lovely people!!! to all of you!!!

I’ve been tagged by the sweet crazy so plz read it!! It took me time to write this and at the bottom end there are some updates…nothing new just some emotions

Back to the tag here it goes:

What would you be if you could be ...

A Vegetable: lettuce cause they look so lovely and taste so fresh that is what I’ld like to look and taste like
An Animal: A dog!! I just love dogs!!! They are so loyal!!!
A Fruit: yakh nothing I hate fruits
A Color: dark green!! I love that color!!!!
A Household Object: I guess a pillow I like to be hugged and I was told to be very very comfy
Article of Clothing: naked
A Drink: Vodka!!!! Wooohooow nothing like Vodka to kill me
A Famous Person: ya like I’ld ever want that!!
A Film Character: Monica Vitti in L’Eclisse
A Cartoon Character: mmmmm I think I’ld like to be buttercup
A Car: an SUV
A City: Beirut Baby!!!!!!
A Country: No place like home amazing place…yet I don’t know where I belong anymore so I guess the lost lands of Bohemia
A Mythical Creature: A unicorn no doubt!!!!!! I love them!!!
A Chocolate Bar: anything from Quality Street by Cadbury
A Book: the Bell Jar…I know it’s very depressing and suicidal but I get that from people around me
A Sport: swimming!!!!! Whooohoooww!!
A Word: CHAOS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
One of Your Family: I can’t answer that…
One Of Your Friends: none of them I can’t be them! I simply can’t!!! even though I love them so much

This or that:

Coke or Pepsi? Coke!!!
Regular pool or heated pool? Def heated!!!
Hot tea or ice tea? yakh!!! I hate both!!!
Sunflower or daisy? I’ld go for daisies they make me feel stupid and not think so much I need that
Red rose or pink rose? red as red as blood
Salt or pepper? can I have sugar??
Red or Green Apple? Red
Red or Blue? Red!!! It simply amazes me!!
Christmas or Thanksgiving? Thanksgiving is a waste of time you blind idiots!!! And I so hate Christmas with all of my heart ask my close people they’ll explain
Pink or Green? duuuuhhh pink girlfriend just kidding def green
Hamburger or Hotdogs? I wish there was a throwing up emoticon blaaaahhhh horrible!!!
Music or Movies? I think you asked the wrong question akid Movies!!!!
Heaven or hell? Just give me life…a little bit longer
Comedy or horror? Horror
aol or aim? do I look 14 to you??
ipod or mp3? iPod
Purse or backpack? I think a combination of both I carry the biggest purses ever!!!
Myspace or bebo? neither
Parision or Sears? Sears baby!!!!!
Paris or France? I love Paris!! I miss it!!! I hate the country!!!
Milky Way or Sneakers? Mom where’s the damn Milky Way stop hiding it in the highest cupboard sad memories from my childhood I love Milky Way!!!
Vanilla or Chocolate? A mix of both
Phone or Internet? I need to have both!!! help meeeee!!
Steak or Shrimp? WTF!!!! Neither!!! I think I just threw up in my mouth
School or Work? This just made me feel so old…work…work…work…

What comes to mind when you hear..

..snow? snowangel…the ones we used to spend hours twirling on snow!!
..rain? dawn and the smell of pine trees
..tornado? Hard core sex
..summer love? Sweet sixteen
..Jon? pass me that bottle of beer
..Mike? killed the dog
..Shea? Shea the queen of the underground
..banana? Throwing up!
..dizzy? pregnancy!!! Noooooo
..Laura? stupid name
..Juan? qui passo???? Seriously what the hell were his parents thinking
..car? Bzibdinn road trip with Rasha and Susu The Doors playing in the background…amazing summer…2005
..white? Eternal mourning…
..peppermint? for some fucked up reason sex!!!
..New Found Glory? a little alley in a remote town
..placebo? I love them!!!!!
..orange juice? Throwing up again
..candid camera? stupid
..sister? hair…hair…hair…eyes…smile…I miss you…
..brother? Fall of 1995…his shirt got torn…we laughed…one family
..hate? myself
..school? kick ass days
..President? absolutely nothing…like seriously I couldn’t think of a thing! Totally blank!!
..football? my ex breaking his leg on the field
..rap? waste of time
..pop? Cherry lips
..rock? stubborn
..punk? the dark years
..sex? wooohooowww!!! Just give me a min and we’re ready to go
..death? mocking me!
..baby? Fuck NO!!!!
..duuude? what the hell happened to us?
..the end? The beginning of the middle

I...

I Am: the one with the slashed arteries
I Want: to dance with you
I Have: finally decided to fade…fade away…
I Wish: I had died that day…never loved you…
I Hate: myself…my constant fucked up theories
I Fear: sleeping
I Hear: my nails cracking…my throat suffocating
I Search: for nothing
I Wonder: why I always manage to put on so many masks
I Regret: listening to you
I Love: the rain falling down my face…diffusing through light…and watching the sun rise
I Ache: when I go through old scenes filed in my twisted brain
I Always: smoke
I Usually: drink a lot
I Am Not: suicidal I’m just depressed
I Dance: whenever I can
I Sing: when I think of you
I Never: want to miss the rose petals falling…crumbling…detaching from life
I Rarely: talk anymore…so sick of this…
I Cry: when I think of the future…can’t see myself there anymore…
I Am Not Always: depressed
I Lose: in absolutely nothing!!!! no just kidding!
I'm Confused: because I simply am…makes sense?
I Need: to be hugged…I need that!
I Should: just shoot myself!!! Thank God this is finally over!!!!

Ok so it’s finally over!!! Wooohooow

On the more serious matter, I haven’t been feeling well at all…like seriously I feel so down lately can’t even explain it…haven’t been able to even express it…I should write but I can’t…I miss you guys and for once I will tag people I haven’t done that in ages so here goes:

I Tag

---- just because I feel like it

---- I want you to come back to life!

---- I want to read it

---- You have to do it!

---- Yalla show me what you got

---- I’m sure it’ll make you laugh

---- Ok I know how much you hate tags but common you will let me suffer alone?? I don’t even remember ever tagging you so plz do it

---- I guess we’re even now


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