Dawn

Stepping out of the shower
All wet…waiting for the water to dry
Chills up my spine
Water drying already
Dress up, step out, chose a mask to wear
Happy mask today
Happy happy mask

Drive down the city
Wait…don’t know what to expect
Stare at my watch
Light a cigarette, nod and smile while conversations roll away

Where is he?
Waiting…smiling, not wanting to be rude
Stare at my watch, he’ll be here soon
My eyes shine, just thinking of him
My smile widens…I miss him

Stare at my watch
Light another cigarette
My smile fades away…the happy mask is still on
Nod and smile…stop staring at my veins
Stop counting tiles
Just stop it! Just stop it!

A warm touch…my smile is back
I kiss him…hug him
I blabber some nonsense
We laugh…we walk together
New people…different kind of music
We laugh…we dance…

I smile…he stares into my eyes
I feel like crying…is this even real?
I focus on my cigarette
Watch it burn…I smile at the fumes
Back to my world…my own world
So sad without him…so sad

He touches my hand
I look at him and smile
I ignore my world
This one seems much better
So relaxing…so smooth
I laugh at myself…this is real!
Hours seem endless
Gliding through the night
Little accidents…magic hour
We’ll depart soon…only a matter of minutes
Sunrise…we have to depart
Depart? Do we have to…
Look at the sun
Our first sunrise…